If feelings are meant to be felt, why do I work so hard to avoid just feeling them? What do I imagine will happen if I feel them fully? Will they consume me? Weaken me? Define me? Are there 'good' and 'bad' feelings and I only want to feel the 'good'?
Why do I repress my anger or fly into a fiery rage when both are methods of avoiding simply feeling angry?
Why do I fill my alone time with noise or distraction to avoid the feeling of loneliness?
Why do I rush to bring arousal to an ecstatic conclusion instead of allowing the feeling of desire to exist?
Why do I downplay my accomplishment and success to avoid feeling any sense of self-congratulation?
If I trust anything, it is the present moment, so why can't I give each feeling its due? Without judgement of good or bad, can I notice anger, loneliness, desire and pleasure in a job well-done without having to avoid, rush to culmination, dismiss or rationalize my way out of it?
Now, in this moment, I feel gratitude. And hoping that I can make the choice to notice other feelings as they come. No attachment or aversion. Only acceptance. How chill would that be?
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