If the very phrase "today is the first day of the rest of your life" didn't want to make me seriously yak, I'd be able to use it for this very occasion.
My two-job life ends today. I teach my last evening yoga class tonight and likely to a very small number due to the fact that it is Hallowe'en and some of my students will have plans involving costumes and a higher sugar content, I'm guessing.
My body has been sensing that I am intentionally trying to break the pattern of overwork and it is reacting accordingly. My neck resembles a massive steel rod and if my shoulders were any closer to my ears, they'd look like they were hanging off my ears like a pair of boulder earrings. My stomach, usually tight with the sensitivity of hypervigilance, is going above and beyond the call of duty to stay clenched 24/7, enough to significantly restrict deep breathing.
With my shoulders up over my ears, my vision has also been clouded in a couple of other areas. In the past two days, I have locked my keys in my car and got my first speeding ticket ever. Except for the sliver of Scottish genes in me that was trying to calculate how much my daring brush with the law was going to cost me, the rest of me felt like a little excited, as if I was in a movie complete with the flashing lights in my rear view and the tall, dark and armed walking toward the car in my side view mirror.
When the cop asked if I knew how fast I was going, I looked him right in the eye and say "no". I didn't have a clue. Clearly driving under the influence of non-attention, I was somewhere else while my body was driving. How's that for a life metaphor?
Wake up, Danette! Your life is right here, right now. And you're not going to believe the incredible things coming your way if you just keep your eyes wide open and resist the old pattern of overwhelming yourself to avoid being present. And whether you like it or not, today IS the first day of the rest of your life. Yak away!
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